Just .....ugh..... Lord help me...please.

Today I was reminded of why Chris was always kinda protective and defensive when it came to me. I had a male friend or shall I say someone that I thought was a do some straight GRIMY shyt... like just grimy. And I just got so heated and lost my temper. How could you let me do for you as a friend and pretend to have good intentions in a friendship if that is truely not where your attentions lie. He just ugh.... a huge ass regret. He called my phone after ignoring me for DAYS and have me worried about your well being. My brother use to cool me down and just tell me how nothing that I think is serious enough to get mad over is not that serious at all.... I started to do some real G s*#! but caught myself. It wasn't that serious when I really thought about it and he was right people reap what they sow. The best that we can hope for in this life is to have good company until god calls us home. So Iam asking you guys to pray lord...please help her temper and help her to outgrow it. All Iam coming up with is just ugh.....lord help me....please.