To clarify I didn't make this blog to make people depressed or bring them down. But to let the know what I saw in the last days of his life and why I celebrate him. Chris was a very special kind of person. He had what my grandmother would call a old soul. He cared about every one around him and everything. I use to get mad at him all the time for doing so much for others and not enough for himself. I was in the library when someone asked me about him. I just busted out crying. Most that know me know that it is EXTREMELY abnormal for me to be such a blubbering mess. I can't really complain because I got to say my goodbyes and he knew that I loved him deeply and would have done anything for him. He was in so much pain in his final days that that fact that he died is not what hurts but the fact that he will never again go thru my refrigerator and eat all my left overs. He will never again go thru my car to make sure I have a spare tire and jack. From time to time I will be posting my thoughts on him in this blog as a way of venting if you will. Feel free to put what you want on here as well, cause since writing it has helped me immensely. Always let your love ones know that you love them and keep them close to your heart cause you never know when god will call them home.